Tuesday, May 21, 2013

a late, but wonderful valentines

February 26, 2013

Today you finally got the gift I sent for Valentine's Day- I'm such a horrible girlfriend for sending it so late. I did; however, get the things you said would be the best gifts, well except warhammer stuff- candy, socks, beef jerkey, and pajama pants.

I also pulled out the creativity that has been hiding in the back of my brain- behind all the nursing knowledge- and made you an awesome card. I was so proud of it when I got done that if you liked anything in your gift, I wanted it to be the card.

Obviously, you liked your gift too, and I think it came at a good time since work has been hard on you lately. It made my heart melt reading your message you sent me about your gift.

"At work a package came and quite frankly your home made cards are the greatest things ever. You really are just a great girlfriend and more. I honestly can not explain how much I love you and what you mean to me. I love you so much. Thank you for a wonderful Valentines."

I am glad that you appreciate the sweet things I do for you, and I definantly appreciate everything you have done and continue to do for me.

We are getting closer and closer to time for you to be home! The anticipation is killing me!

I love you honey bunny- more than I could ever say

Always, Always

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Letting go

February 18, 2013

Times are rough. As time for you gets closer, I am losing patience- since time that I have been waiting for you is increasing. I've been ready for you to be home, and I day dream of that day almost everyday.

I keep getting stuck on the same issue- Do you love me? Some days it's easy- of course you do, but others like so far today it's harder to remember all the love you have said you have for me.

I've told you words mean alot to me, but really words mean alot to me because you are thousands of miles away. You can't show your love with a hug or a kiss, you can't look into my eyes and smile, you can't hold my hand as we walk around, and most importantly you can't be around at times when I need you since time is so different and you are busy.

If there was one thing I could change in this world, it would be the fact that we are always busy- I am always thinking of what do I have to do next?

Instead, I'd like to think what do I want to do next? I'd like to close my eyes and just be for a while and let time slip away. One day, I'd like to do that with you, just be and do nothing really- have no agenda.

Today I am letting go- letting go of the issue I started before- today I choose to quit nagging you about being sweet and romantic...sure it's nice to have someone to fill your ears with sweet somethings, but I don't need you to do that. I don't need to have to ask someone to tell me all that...they need to want to do it themselves. But really what i need is to be happy with myself and thankful for everything I have.

Always, Always

You and Bjorn

February 3, 2013

Today I was thinking alot about you and Bjorn. I took him to the field to play while I studied, but after, I walked around with him and just admired him for a while. I have only had him for a few months, and he has grown so much not just in size (he has pretty much doubled in size), but also in how smart he is.

He has been house trained, he knows how to come, he knows when it's time for bed, he raises his legs for me to put on his harness, he knows when he is in trouble, and I swear he knows what I am saying most of the time.

I wish you were here because you are missing out on some of this, but I know when you get here you will grow close to him and will love him as much or more than I do (if that is possible). I can't wait for you to be with us at the field to play- we can really feel like a family then.

I feel like Bjorn our child, and I think if ever we do have kids and if for some reason you are gone with the military, all of this experience with Bjorn will make it somewhat easier because I will almost know what it is like.

I love you Todd and am thrilled for our future together- there are so many good things in store for us. I am so happy I am going to be able to share those things with you.

Always, Always