love and happiness

February 2, 2013

It has been a very long time since I have written in here- I have either been busy with school or just didn't have anything I wanted to write about.

It seems like things have been a battle between us- like we both have a lot going on and are stressed, but also our communication has been hard. We have been fighting and it has really hurt sometimes- what makes it so bad is you are so far and we can't see each other. I imagine/hope things would either be worked out quicker or we would not even get into half of the arguments that we do if we were together.

May can't get here soon enough

Today started off as one of our disagreements about facebook- even though you started off my facebook postings as being a "punishment" at least you did do them and well I think it made us better.

You showed me that you do feel and think some of the ways that I do and maybe it helped you think more about taking me for granted and that you should show me more that you love me.

It's hard being away because instead of being able to show me with hugs and kisses and what not, you have to show me with words- I think that is hard for both of us...especially you.

For me it's remembering that you love me whether you say something nice to me or not each day and for you it's thinking that I will remember like you do and that I'll always be fine without sweet words.

Like you said on facebook "Something so small can affect your day to no end"- words from you affect my day very much
- a good morning from you helps me wake up and want to get out of bed
- a good night helps me end my day on a good note thinking of you and imagining the day you are here to cuddle with me as we fall asleep
- and a I love you fills my heart and soul with an emotion that can not be described except for that it is a love and happiness that you give me

Always, Always

that is all

January 8, 2013

Today was my orientation for my last semester of nursing school- as I looked at the calendar, I smiled because I know that that is all that is keeping you away from me.

Just four months to go, and I know they will fly by quick and you will finally be here by my side. Just 56 days of school and then I graduate and then my present, the best present, arrives.

Alot of times I have the words to express how much you mean to me, but I know that day I won't- I'll be too emotional to come up with words. I'll feel too much to be able to talk.

I'm sure there will be tears, smiles, hugs, kisses, and laughter.

Its a dream I dream very often, well day dream at least. It is a day that I wish days away to be at now. I love you Todd with all my heart and I always will.

Always, Always